So yesterday I ended up going to the emergency room. Why, you may ask...well...

I cut a chunk of my finger off yesterday. :D

I know. That's rather gruesome. The doctor said I'll be okay, and that the skin will grow back within 2 weeks.

To be honest, I think the tetanus shot hurt more than the slice.

Get better soon finger. :( I'll get cheezecake in your honor tomorrow. ♥

What I learned? Never use a medallion slicer when you aren't paying attention. 8)

It's been a while, LJ. ♥

Just kind of board of the internet, to be honest. I know, shocking~! But when you remove yourself from all the drama, you begin to think clearly. Clearly enough to write things. Write things in an old document saved under the title of "manifesto.doc". Now I must see if it will actually be finished this time around.

But aside from that, what have I been up to? Lots! Went to NYC two weekends in a row and hung out with my amazing friends Katie and Lora. Like...beyond words. Went and had some amazing food, went to a street fair and even an anime convention. Not all in one day of course. Those were just some of the things we ended up doing. It just makes me more sure of what I'm planning for the future. I did get something completely amazing though. It made my fangirl heart sing. A TEAM GAI WALLSCROLL! SDIOFJLSDKJFLSDKFJ OMG...it's gorgeous and I swear I must have been the most annoying person in the entire world when I found it cause that was all I was thinking and talking about when I bought it. It's beautiful. I was sure from that moment in time when I paid for it and started squealing that I was and always will be a Team Gai fan. It's hard not being a complete nerd over them. Even now when I find reading Naruto a chore instead of a pleasure (it's still not over yet? D:). But...:) I am so happy now. A lot has been changing and coming together in my life recently. Bliss. ♥

It's sad that it's Sunday though. It means tomorrow is Monday. But, it's alright. I still have a few hours to accomplish a few things.

To Do List
- Make "French Toast" Oh my...super yummy~! ♥
- Pay bills
- Wash clothes
- Wash hair
- Lots of writing
- Enjoy a little outside time
- Oggle over some fanart

Oh, and light_flower. I was trying to catch up on journals and read your recent recommendation of the manga "Dengeki Daisy". YOU ARE SO RIGHT! Very good read. I love it. It's killing me that I have to wait for chapters though.

Not a long update because I should go to bed so I don't fall asleep on the road tomorrow.

Going to New York. I need to because my brain is fried from all the training I'm doing at work. It's so draining that sometimes I just sit downstairs as soon as I walk through the door and watch pointless TV till my senses tell me it's bed time. Then I do it all over again.

I need a break. Good thing it's the weekend. Time to freshen up. Should be exciting times.

I deserve it though. I donated blood this week and gave my sister money to buy books. Not to mention I worked my ass off. I've done my good deeds, and now I get some me time. HURRAH!

So as I wait for these slides to dry, I thought it would be rather important to actually...put some of my thoughts down in writing.

My mind is at it's busiest when I'm not doing something. lol

I want to move forward. I want to move out. I want to travel. I want a boyfriend. I want to hang out with my friends. I want to stop losing friends. I want a better job. I want a new car. I want to feel more motivated. I want to go back to school. I want more money. I want people to stop pushing me around. I want to have my own voice. I want to stop pleasing everyone for the sake of not having the courage to speak my own mind. I want my face to clear up. I want to find more people who understand me. I want my family to fix itself. I want to feel less sorry. I want to look in the mirror and say "looking good, kid." I want more excitement. I want to be less scared. I want to finish everything that I've started.

I sound selfish, but this is what I want. And in a way, it's just a lot of stuff that I need right now. If I don't get at least one of these things done...then I'm afraid I'm going to be stuck here forever.

Where'd this all come from? I think it's some higher power at work...but all this week I've heard about other people's accomplishments and...it just makes me think...where am I going? I couldn't even find a real answer. So...I guess I should start somewhere, right? SO then things just kept coming to mind. Things that I had to put off because of life issues. I..I'm 23 for goodness sakes. I don't want to be the old lady with 100 cats. I just don't. D:

I am so lucky, and sometimes I tend to forget that. I was reminded of all of the reasons why I am so lucky this week. I had such a wonderful birthday, and week...and weekend! This is definitely my favorite birthday ever. Even though it was really simple, I felt incredibly loved. I got so many wonderful comments and gifts and love. I couldn't ask for anything more. Thank you everyone who remembered and made my days very special.

My weekend was incredibly fantastic cause my amazing friend Katie came over and spent the weekend with me. She brought me delicious cookies, we went to see Panyo (which was full of cuteness and lolz) and then we went shopping and I got the cutest stuff (you are my favorite person to shop with...seriously!). I totally cried when you left. I know I'm a loser for doing that, but I miss you guys, so much. I can't wait to see you again, so let's see each other soon. I can drive up there, or whatever. XDD

I'm so happy. Not even my former friend's rudeness on my b-day can bring me down now (yeah...fuck you for texting your friends while everyone else was singing happy birthday to me =/). I can feel good now going to work. :)